As a new month approaches

 I sit here writing this post with a gloomy grey cloud around my head and it happens to have the unpredictability to storm and rain at any moment. I hate having days and even weeks like this. The people in this  house have been dealing  with "whatever I'm going through right now"and there seems to be no relief on the horizon. I feel I'm not the mother and wife I should be but lately I can't shake this depression that's holding me down.

Tomorrow starts a whole new month and an end to this year. There are so many personal changes / goals I would like to achieve but am completely clueless as to where my starting point is. All I know is I don't like who I've been lately and seriously need a shift to find my inner light again. Hopefully I will get a good night sleep free from nightmares and waking up at 3:00 a.m., to a beautiful new day and month. I usually don't share these things on my blog, but I'm going to keep it real because this is how it is sometimes.